Oh good lord

This did not happen. It did not happen, it did not happen. It did not fucking happen!

There is WAY too much drama in Ashyville. TOO MUCH!

Help. 

Dear whoever who reads this pathetic excuse for a blog

It’s happened.

I’m in love.

Again.

Wanna know what it feels like to have friends?

It feels GREAT.

And just like that, I have so many people coming up to me, asking me what’s wrong.

I love all of you. Thank you so much, to those who messaged over facebook, msn, emailed. I had no idea I meant that much to you all.

Tis now that I pity those who’ll never be able to have this.

Thank you, Big Man. At the end of the day, I’d like to believe you’re real because you always come through for me. Just when it seems the darkest.

I am a lucky girl indeed.

Sigh

I really, really, miss my rock. . .

Farking hell

You’re testing me, aren’t you? Goddamn you, I know you are!

Revelations

So the recent development is that, I get very hormonal and I freak people out. 

So that’s Vila, Chris, Kel and gods knows who else. 

I guess it’s in times like this when you see who your real friends are and who really counts.

Either that or I’m just not worth the effort to be around with when hormonal. 

Oh well. Either way, they’re such lovely thoughts to be burdened with. 

Predictable

People are so predictable.

It’s typical. Someone else comes along, showers one with attention and the person he/she claimed to have loved and always loved, well suddenly that doesn’t come into play anymore. 

But I knew this from back with Arun. 

People always claim to be around for you, to be there. And then they ALWAYS disappoint because they always leave. 

This is why I don’t and I can’t trust anyone anymore.

Even the ones I should be trusting. 

=)

Yeah. I’m happy.

Thanks, you. 

No one loves me

I’m pretty sure of it.

Why would they?

That’s all i want really. Someone to love. Someone who’d love me. The way I want. 

I hate parasitology

It’s a subject that should be banned. Banned I tell you, BANNED.

I just went through VLMs, CLMs, Toxoplasmosis, Giardia, Leishmania, Malaria, Trypanosoma, Schistosoma, Cryptosporidium, Blastocystis, Entamoeba and am now reading. . .on Strongyloides, Ascaris lumbricoides, filarial parasites, Enterobius vermicularis and Trichuris trichuria. I have two more pages of parasites to go.

And all I feel like doing is screaming bloody murder. 

*throws a bunch of stuff around* Fuck parasites. Fuck em all.